Thursday, November 30, 2017

I can't escape my fate—I’m a crossdresser

As the saying goes, if you shut the door to all errors, truth will be shut out. Can avoidance solve problems?
I was deeply in thought.
Life can be easy, sometimes difficult. In general, the career cannot succeed, the family cannot be harmonious, the interpersonal relationship cannot be maintained, and the health problem cannot be guaranteed, any question can be stressful for you. There were times when I was overwhelmed by myself as a crossdresser. I wished I wasn't, and I wanted to be a woman. I wish I could get away from my life, even if it's just a short day or a month. For the past two years, my personal life has been very bad. My wife can't accept my crossdresser and divorce me every day. In my eyes, family harmony is very important. I don't want to get divorced, and even I gave up all my crossdresser dating. But in her eyes, I seem to have become an eyesore, the end is I cannot control, I divorced.
Divorce may be a relief to my ex-wife, but for me it is the beginning of pain. No one was accompanying me for dinner, no one took me shopping, and I lost my gentle touch every night. I can't get used to a person's life, which makes me feel numb. I feel like I've been dumped by the whole world, I'm not a man, I'm not a woman, I'm a pervert. As the days passed, I still could not get rid of my troubles and stay away from the relationships that were falling apart. If someone is talking and laughing, I always feel that it is laughing at me. Maybe I need a crossdresser dating site, to listen to some advice from similar people. My request is not high, just want ordinary life.

I need to wake up the woman in my heart who is beautiful, elegant, and shy. For many years, she had been buried in my heart, just to maintain that fragile marriage. I hid her for fear of being disturbed. It almost cost me my life to escape this long time. Now, when I need it, I welcome her with open arms. I opened my own mothball box, and like Lanus and his blanket, she brought me comfort and calmness. The harder it is, the more I need her. Being dressed up is fun and charming. Marriage made me miserable, and my clothes gave me a rebirth. Looking at myself in the mirror, I was deeply attracted. I'll stick with it until one day my life is over. I knew that if she was forced to hide again, I would be in a worse position. But I'm not going to let that happen, and I'm going to be brave enough to face my identity and my dress and crossdresser meeting is what really makes me happy.

Saturday, November 25, 2017

As a crossdresser, I began to learn makeup

In fact, I think some shame to ask Don about where to find crossdresser dating site, like someone would be, but he was no hesitant to say yes, then he give the site’s link to me.  As don is happy to tell me everything, Don said she had a cute daughter, very lovely, "My daughter is not here right now," she told me. "I think the best thing is that she doesn't."I also hope her daughter is not at home. Without his daughter, I could learn more makeup techniques from don, which could be a little selfish. Slowly, we went to a unique room and walked in. Her wife was still busy in the kitchen, and Don, began to teach me how to make up.
Don took out a huge box, opened the box, and with a full set of makeup tools and cosmetics appeared in front of us. I am in a daze, like being frightened. I was in a daze where I stood, and I had a feeling that it would be confusing. I sit down and asked if I am ready, I did not refuse.
I assured her that what she had done seemed to me the best. She was grateful to me for telling her how I really felt. She made up and we talked. It may be a bit rough at first, she says, but things get better when a person decides to confess and move on. I admire her technique very much, and I also believe that my makeup technology can get better and better.

Some of Don's friends came, and she introduced me to some friends, and we had a few drinks and laughed. It was a good time for me to start learning and socializing. For me, this crossdresser dating has benefited me a lot. Now I want more CD dating.